The Void

I am feeling a sense of being almost buoyant right now. The energy feels like bobbing in water and I can't get my feet on the ground to get my footing. It is like treading water and not getting anywhere.  There is an emptiness that is yearning and calling for creation. In the emptiness is a feeling that is unsettling because it holds so much potential but it is still unknown. Feelings surface that cause me to fear that what I put into that emptiness through my thoughts may hurt me again. It is the fear that my unconscious creations may come back to haunt me in the future.

So I have developed a longing to be impeccable with my thoughts and a longing to be aware of every unconscious feeling and pattern that holds me back from creating something better and brighter.

The void is a gift. A gift from the future. I see it differently then I have before in my life because I am more conscious of it. I consciously chose this void. I chose it over the mis-creations I was experiencing from the unconscious thought patterns of my past. I see now it is my future I am creating with every thought and feeling I have. It is my choice as to what that future is. I can make that choice in each moment to live in fear or in love. Whatever I choose I will create.

This void has helped me to discern those feeling that are beneath the surface. The ones that cause me to look at them and let me know...think again....this isn't what you want. How are you going to change it before you create it? What do you really want?

And in that moment I have a choice to make. I am grateful for the uneasiness and unsettling feelings. They are what cause me to allow for inspiration and they allow me to create something bigger and brighter in my future. The uneasiness is only the resistance to love yearning to be birthed through me. I embrace the not knowing for it holds all the answers to the yearning that is bringing my future into being. It is in the now and it is where inspiration and love is if I allow it.